There are mornings when I wake up and it feels really dark. ...the sun is shining and the sleep was fine---but, the cob webs are thick in my brain and my heart feels heavy. A dark cloud hovers. I just feel very tired. Sad. Dark. Do you ever feel this way?
This morning I crawled out of bed with a hovering weight and exhaustion... wishing for more hours in bed. As I sat down, methodically following my stubborn routine of "God-time first", I opened up to Psalm 25. And, there it was...
There it was in black and white print---life on a page. An invitation. Light to be had. ...an offering:
"In you, Lord my God, I put my trust"
On dark and difficult days, I have a choice. Do I open up and let the light in? Do I lift my face and speak truth to my soul?
This morning, as I read these words, I knew there was an invitation. Trust Me.
Trust me for your enough again today. In Me you have all you need. Trust Me for all you need. Trust that I am bigger than it all.
In exhausted surrender, my head fell back into the arm chair, face raised...
I can only whisper these words today--- You are bigger than it all! In, You, Lord my God, I put my trust!
I sat... for how long, Lord? I sat and I asked. I prayed. I listened. In You, Lord my God, I put my trust!
Into my heart began a faint song... words that rang true and echoed life. "We are more than conquerors through Christ" (song here... do have a listen, if you can...such beautiful truth in this song!)
I found my phone and listened on repeat--- these words becoming my prayer.
There will be dark days... we have them. We all do. The heavy dark speaks lies to us and makes us feel we are separated from Him in some way. This is not true! We are never separated from His love. Never.
Seek Him first... open His word, looking for His heart and His invitation of life and light.
For, indeed, we are more than conquerors through Christ!
"In all these things we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us! For I am convinced [that nothing] will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus, our Lord!" (Romans 8:37-39)