No... that song can't really be for me. Is it, Lord?
As I awoke from my short cat-nap... I woke up to a song. My body was tired-- fighting some kind of sickness all week. But, when I awoke, wafting like a gentle breeze across my brain, the song sang to me. It sang and beautifully touched down gently into my heart. It brought peace---it's beauty brought light.
I hadn't heard this song recently. In fact, I haven't heard this song in quite a while. Where did that come from?
Waking. Listening. Questioning.
Generally, I don't wake up with songs in my head. Do you? Some people, I am told, often have songs bouncing and singing in their minds and hearts. I don't. Rarely, in fact. Where did that come from?
I had struggled all morning with irritating thoughts of insecurity. Comparison. I had laid my head down on the pillow for my nap with a significant annoyance at myself--- annoyance at my insecurities and comparisons.
And, when I awoke... I heard these words: Love, you are lovely.
Gentle words. A gentle song. Simply beautiful. "Love, you are lovely. You put the stars to shame."
I knew the song immediately. A love song entitled "Tonight", by JJ Heller, this is a song from a groom's heart. He is singing to his bride on their wedding day. Or, is the bride singing to the groom?
A beautiful love song. Tender. Gentle and simply beautiful.
How funny... why this song, Lord?
Love, you are lovely. Still singing. Still brooding over me, this song. It sounds like an invitation. An invitation.
No?!... No! this song can't possibly really be for me. From you, Lord?
Love, you are lovely. You put the stars to shame.
Scripture teaches us. Experience speaks to it. Creation shows forth His deep love for us. Why do we question it? He loves His bride. He delights in her. He calls us His beloved. He lavishes His love over her day and night. He smiles at her. And, sings over her.
But, still, somewhere inside I struggle to take it in. Could He, really? Could You really, Lord, love me this tenderly?
Almighty God? Loves me... this much!? Can He possibly sing to me this beautiful love song? Can He want to dance with me... and delight in me so. It is almost too much for me to take in at this very moment as I type.
The singing-song has dissipated now. Other noises and thoughts and moments of life have carried it away. But, the sense of His deep love still lingers.
I still listen. And, question. And, wonder. And, I smile. ...attempting to take it in.
You are my beloved and I am yours to keep. Take my heart forever, You have captured me!