That is how I have felt today. ...just not myself. This is how I feel, even now.
My mood was stained this morning by a bad dream. Two bad dreams, actually. And, throughout the day, I have felt just--- out-of-it---
As I have prayed, or attempted to pray, through the day... I have felt stilted and tired. My house just felt dark today. ...not ominous or sad, exactly... just gray and dark. A cloud hanging.
But, even as I write this, I am reminded that in reality... nothing has changed. There is nothing, at all, different from today and yesterday. Well, nothing, I should say... but my mood.
Moods fluctuate. At least, mine do.
But my Father in Heaven is a firm, immovable strength. He hasn't changed.
Who He is, and who I am in Him, doesn't ever change. The solid-ness of God Almighty fills my mind with beautiful, Biblical images of a fortress... a rock. He is my strong tower. So, the wind and waves aren't even lapping my boat--- but, they feel like they are--- and still He remains solid and unmoved.
So, the shifting shadows descended on my head today, yes. But, my God never changes. He never shifts. And, this thought flickers a bright light in my soul. This Truth opens my soul and allows me to take a deeper breath tonight.
"Whatever is good and perfect comes to us from God above, who created all heaven's lights. Unlike them, [and me], He never changes or casts shifting shadows." (James 1:17)
